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[21 Jun 2006|12:17am]
i have a new username. add it.

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[06 May 2006|01:37am]
Holy shit some people make me want to pull my fucking hair out. Strand by strand.

Today, irony punched me right in the face.

Not even 5 hours after I vow to be the best friend to everyone, I get shit all over.

I love how I can always find the perfect lyrics to go along with my entries.

I don't give a fuck if my words have grown old
I've never been so willing to see a relationship fray
I don't give a fuck how thin this ice has become
I'm stomping on it anyway

a bit of advice: if you claim to be an up-front, 100% honest person, talking shit about me to my best friend isn't the coolest thing to do.

[05 May 2006|02:19pm]
[ mood | determined ]

It only takes a little bit of effort, to open up your eyes and see, that this life is so fucking short but still let each day of it get the best of you, instead of the other way around.

big changes.

From now on, I vow to be a more reliable girl, a better friend, a nicer daughter, a more socially and enviornmentally conscious citizen, and an all around better person.

and this time i mean it.

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[23 Apr 2006|09:54pm]
I went to screamin ink in hopes that i could get a small piece to cover the monstrocity on my arm. it turns out since its so bulky and dark, the only way to cover it will be with an even larger, darker, piece. so pat is drawing out my HALF SLEEVE and will call me when its ready. yes, im going to have a half sleeve on my arm. i swore i would never do it but it needs to be done.

now, i know a lot of you think my tattoo now is awesome, unique, whatever.....but there are reasons i am getting it covered.

1. I picked at it, so it healed fucking disgusting.
2. Its missing long island. thats embarassing.
3. It was an all around bad decision on my part and I already regret it and I have only had it for like 5 months. My hatred for it will only grow.
4. Someone mistook it for Ohio. That was the last straw.
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[21 Apr 2006|06:14pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

"that bitch has ohio on her arm"

those are the words I heard as I was walking to my car today. AWESOME.

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[19 Apr 2006|10:28pm]
[ mood | good ]

I just bought I <3 Huckabees. 4th DVD in the past 2 days.
I think this may be the beginning of a new obsession.

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[19 Apr 2006|07:12pm]
[ mood | creative ]

I got Fight Club and Sideways at walmart for $20. Awesome.
I threw a CD at my laptop and the "n" key came off. Now it's really difficult to type. Lame.

I am going to see Yeah Yeah Yeahs for free on May 2nd. Thank you Marlee<3.

Now you state your current location on here? I don't know how I feel about that.


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[16 Apr 2006|07:30pm]
[ mood | blah ]

today was full of ticks, immaturities, hissy fits, italian food, and ebay.

I made erica watch me and you and everyone we know last night. She liked it, which was surprising.

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[03 Apr 2006|01:52am]
Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck these memories.
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[30 Mar 2006|11:31pm]
[ mood | confused ]

When nature walks I see it in your legs. There's something in your style.
In the sun, you turned into the wind and took all my surprise.
And like a million eyes on me, on me, on me.

When nature learns nothing's in control and nothing stays the same in your way,
It will not return until the season's change.
And when it changes fine...I'll go, I'll go, I'll go.

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[23 Mar 2006|02:38am]
erica and i have been in ohio for 4 days. it's been fun. the drive was wayyyyy long. we leave for maryland tomorrow. i think we're staying in a hotel for a night or two. it should be fun. pictures to come once we get back to new jersey.

ps, i saw the hills have eyes tonight. it was scary and gross and pretty good.
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[08 Mar 2006|03:00pm]
“To expect too much is to have a sentimental view of life and this is a softness that ends in bitterness”

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my knees are week and body needs to be close to you. sometime soon. [07 Mar 2006|01:36am]
[ mood | confused ]

deth2thoswhowait: time and distance arent really factors to a gypsy and welll....i think you have a gypsy heart.

thoughts are fucking consuming me. im confused and scared and happy and upset and everything someone could possibly feel all at once. the only thing I am certain about is that a clear sky in new jersey has never been so perfect.

besides, maybe this time is different. i mean...i really think you like me.

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rant rant rant [26 Feb 2006|11:06pm]
Erica and I went shopping today and both got a few items from Forever 21. We came home and Erica noticed some printing on the bottom of the bag. Turns out it says "John:316" on the bottom folds of the forever 21 bags.

This makes me really fucking angry. I understand that Forever 21 is a chain merchandise store and are lawfully allowed to print whatever they would like on their bags. However, I find it very misleading. The merchandise in that store is NOT something I would imagine a strict cristian to wear. Obvioussly the owner of the store is religious, yet they sell loads of revealing clothes, tons of thongs, and the name itself refers to the legal drinking age.

There is no information in any of the locations that the store is a christian one, and if I had known it was, I would not have spend my hard-earned money there. Although I respect the opinion of others, I IN NO WAY support religion. I think it is just one more way to seperate and judge people. For all I know a portion of their profits could be donated toward some crazy evangelical cult.

In conclusion, Erica and I will no longer be shopping there and we felt like sharing our rant with you all.

god-free& loving it,
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[11 Feb 2006|01:59am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

the way a good writer can pick from an infinite amount of terms and make something beautiful out of it, is something i am so envious of. i don't think you can possibly understand how much little things like words arranged in a perfect manner impact me. and that's ok. because i don't understand either.

Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in.

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[20 Jan 2006|04:17am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

i am so tired but i cant sleep. its 5:17 am. my sleeping patterns have been so fucked since the summer. i hate taking pills (even advil or any of that 'safe' stuff) but i just took 2 tylenol pm's because i'm desperate. if anyone knows anything that might help me, that doesnt involve medication, please please please let me know.

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not a dream. [12 Jan 2006|11:53pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

i got another piece today and holy fucking jesus christ it hurt so bad. halfway through i almost passed out. i couldnt see straight and i was saying wierd, irrational things like "im going to die and my mom is going to spit on my grave because i died in a tattoo shop." and "omg if i die, i don't want kaleigh to drive my car home". i honestly have never been in so much pain in my life. i love the outcome, though...even though its just the outline. its hugeee. i never though i'd get such a large piece, but i really like it.

thats all. peace out kids.

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[04 Jan 2006|12:36am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

good day.

-left angelo's around 1:30
-drove for an hour listning to the best cd ever that i made on katie's computer
-got my car re-inspected. it passed.
-went to the garden state plaza. got 2 shirts from free people, underware and a bra from the gap, and a bunch of shit at sephora.
-got back to my parent's house. chilled with them.
-came home. hung out with a hot boy........and since this is livejournal im going to end it there.

i've decided that this will be my last real update. form now on, im going to write my dreams because i think they are a hell of a lot more interesting than my life. thats all. bye!

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[26 Dec 2005|01:41am]
i finally got to see jordi this week. it was very nice.

saw brokeback mountain. cried so fucking hard.

she got me the post secret book. its awesome.

ny this weekend coming up...whats going on new years!?
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[22 Dec 2005|11:48pm]
i have work at 8 am tomorrow

im hanging out with a boy i might possibly like tomorrow night, i think

and i got a tattoo of a a poloroid picture of new york state today.
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